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nice monday.. slowly picking back my momentum again.
so much ii wanted to overcome that barrier, yet ii still can't bring myself to overcome it! just hope someone can help me with the final push. sigh!
sometimes, ii wonder.. is my 人缘 considered good?
if it is, then why do ii feel neglected at times?
if it isn't, then why am ii still focusing my career in nwm?
hahas! no doubts, ii have expanded my social netwerk all thanks to my customers/part-timers ii have met since day 1. yet, the friendships are somehow not quite the same as friends ii made in sch life. hmms.. maybe its cos sch life more memorable as time spent with them in sch are more than time spent with my other friends? this, ii have no idea..
sometimes, ii really wish time could go back to the old sch days. ha! ii bet many others are hoping this thing to happen too! xD
sometimes, ii wonder what's the difference between close and best?
if close friends are friends whom uu can share ur inner secrets/problems with, then what are best friends for? LOL!
and if this is so, then ii think my boy is my only close friend? hahas!
anyway, this is another shitty entry. just felt this way cos after chatting with some of my friends online today, ii realised that we have slowly become acquaintance. hmms... scary~Labels: PennilessThoughts |
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♥~And I said,
♥♥"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.♥♥
♥♥I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.♥♥
♥♥You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess♥♥
♥♥It's a love story♥♥
- baby just say 'Yes.'~♥
♥~02:59~♥ |
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Can never imagine that ii am mrs lew now. lols!
Can never get used to it too! (not referring to getting used to married life.) imagine, for 6 years plus, uu name ur boy in front of ur friends as my boyfriend blahblahhblahhh, uu name ur FiL & MiL as uncle, aunty and now uu need to change to my hubby blahblahh, hi dad, hi mum. =.= BUT still, ii have to learn to adapt. hahas! slowly overcome my barrier of calling his parents like my parents ba.
Anyway, sincerely thanks to all my friends who have turned up or given their blessings. the photos CD will be ready in 2 weeks ba. cos this coming week need to focus on work.
ok. so now ii'm blogging early in the morning cos ii couldn't sleep, as usual. if ii forced myself to sleep, ii will be running a lot of thoughts through my mind and it'll not help in letting me enter my dream land. >< so in order to prevent myself from all the troubles, ii rather use the com.
bloghopped and realise that many of my friends are still blogging while me, only blog when ii want to. not that ii don't want, but cos Blogger is getting more lagg. or maybe its my netwerk thing. stupid singtel! zzz
work isnt going smoothly for me. am troubled =(
ii know ii have good colleagues willing to hear me pour my sorrows out but its all about me, ii can't express myself well especially on phone/face-to-face. 1 problem overcomed, another arise? or is ii 自取烦恼？later go office, ii dunt know how am ii going to face him. my boy says just tell him straight "NO" since ii dunt want. but there's something worrying inside me,which ii myself also dunt know how to describe. sigh! anyone knows how ii feel?
hmms.. guess ii still have to face the music later. hope it can be solve like how ii want it to be. ii'm happy with who ii am now, happy with who ii am with now. its not so easy to forget some memories. ii came to realised that every single person who stepped into ur life, they leave an impression, the impression which becomes a memory of him/her living inside uu. yet however, this memory/impression may not be the same for that person. Amazing aa? hahas! so want to know what kind of impression/memories uu left inside me? ask me when uu see me. hahas!
ok. got to stop here le. still have a lovely long saturday awaiting for me.
especially later go JD see diamond earring for my boy. hopes he's able to find his ideal one. =)
*joycelyn oughts to step out from her comfort zone from today onwards.
Find back the desire and achieve it once again. ^^ iicandoit!* |
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♥~And I said,
♥♥"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.♥♥
♥♥I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.♥♥
♥♥You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess♥♥
♥♥It's a love story♥♥
- baby just say 'Yes.'~♥
♥~04:42~♥ |
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so fast, its thursday already.. hehes!
and ii just woke up at 230am =x was feeling tiired so ii took a "nap" at 11+pm. actually wanted to sleep to the following day so morning ii can do some house work since my boy is not here to help me =X yet somehow ii just woke up... to watch dvd =.= jean needs to return it later..
to me, ii always wish my life can be like others.. morning wake up, at night sleep... cos ii know morning can do a lot of things - like eat breakfast! hahas! ii dunt know why but ii prefer breakfast and hi-tea to other meal times. =x however, if ii were to wake up in the morning and sleep at night, the time with my boy will be left with Saturdays.. ii myself knows too that my boy also wants this normal lifestyle but due to his work, he cant. =( so ii hope by age 30, ii can enjoy retirement with my boy and our newly formed family ^^
today, on my way to mp, ii did some thinking.. in fact, ytd after meeting, my mind was already sorting out some stuff in my life... its only today that ii made a decision... ii need to move on in my life now... ii cant disappoint pple or let pple disappoint me and make me stay put... SAP is round the corner.. ii need to be prepared fer it! so yupps! more disappointments in life will now keep me motivated to move on~ =)
today chatted a while with my boy.. he seems busy fer his outfield.. he told me he will be out of reach till later in the evening, ii think... its so funny when he told me that ytd he was the being attacked by enemies and now, it is payback time! =X
army life seems fun.. before ii grew up, ii always dream to be in the military or police force.. cos can always be surrounded by friends, can do those trainings.. hahas! but as ii grow up, ii realised as a female, it can never be easy staying in-camp and doing trainings. girls should know why.. guys will never understand. lols! thus, ii admire those ladies who are going towards that job field.. =)
it is just so amazing how ii managed to see my boy grow up. before army life, he's kind of immature =x after army life, ii realised he really grows up and take pride in whatever he do.. and the biggest change in him is being organised.. "this one must put here, cannot put there" =X as ii always misplace my things, he will always be the one to know where it is. hahas! his temper also improve a lot as he becomes more understanding.. now, the only thing ii dunt like about is he don't dote on me as much as last time le =( ii guess maybe cos he matures so he goes for bigger views of responsibilities like us getting married, getting a house etc.. thus dunt see the need to teng me on minor stuff.. but ii guess this is a good thing too? hahas!
it is also amazing how 2 strangers met, fell in love and form a bonding. how opposites attracts and how my ideal love/lover is just an expectation.
ii wonder how many lovers managed to meet their expectations? how many lovers out there are of similar characteristics? can 2 people share the same love with common characteristics and interests? hmms...
imagine a couple who loves to spend $$, got together.. (they will be broke!) 2 misers fell in love. (they will have lots of $$ but don't know how to enjoy life!) or even 2 computer geeks found love through technology..(ii think they communicates through codes and numbers!) LOLs! wouldnt their lives be boring??? >.<
for me,
ii am generous, my boy is thrifty..
ii am untidy, my boy is neat..
ii am happy-go-lucky, my boy is more of a serious person..
ii am lazy, my boy is hardworking..
ii am a homey person, my boy is outgoing..
ii like to joke but the last person who can catch my joke, will be my boy! (this, ii can never understand why is it so difficult for me to make my boy laugh.. note: it is laugh, not smile! some of my friends say he is serious with me cos he loves me..maybe this is the reason why?) and bcos of this, his play-hard-to-get laughters always never fail to tickle my heart ♥
"what uu think, uu become; what uu do today, affects ur life tomorrow.
uu can slow down in life but never ever allow urself to stay put!
the world is changing everyday. if uu choose to stay put and think uu are what uu are, uu will be a loser of tomorrow's world."
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♥~And I said,
♥♥"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.♥♥
♥♥I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.♥♥
♥♥You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess♥♥
♥♥It's a love story♥♥
- baby just say 'Yes.'~♥
♥~03:13~♥ |
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today's entry will be kept short cos later ii'll have to wake up earlier than usual.
finally ii met shani, a part timer who managed to close a slimming package in her first week! and it was cold market! omg! ii wasnt even able to do that when ii just started.. lols!
anyway, she is a nice girl.. and ii found out that she's a leo =x how come more and more leo pple are starting to step into my life? hahas!!
today's meeting ended early but we waited and waited till its time to go home.. =x
meeting updates were shocking but really exciting! hahas!! and all thanks to that, ii added another 2 more goals into my goal list... =)
my mood was being affected by someone today.. ii almost burst out lo.. but luckily ii remembered henri's words: never get too emotional. so ii tried my very best to curb my emotions. lols! its easy fer me cos ii never really cry or throw tantrums in front of friends since young.. thus, friends who saw me cry b4, are fortunate! hahas!
ii realised that ii admire those pple who can be emo.. cos their face expresses their feelings..
like then smile... not happy just walk away/keep quiet and show a F.up face.. just like my boy.. ^^ hahas! he always put on a cool face if he sees someone he dunt really like =X
ii cant seem to do that cos ii will feel obliged.. whether ii am happy or not, ii will still smile.. unless the person is the one whom ii am angry with, then that person can see me ignore him/her while ii continue to enjoy myself talking/joking with the rest. hahas!
ii will think that if ii were to walk away, how the people hanging out with me feel? ii will be the wetblanket who pulls everyone's mood down lo.. so ii rather stay put and smile~ hahas! (easy to zhong nei shang!)
ok.. end off here.. call my boy then ii slp liaos.. weather so cool... hehes! ^^
Only those who have learned the power of sincere and selfless contribution experience life's deepest joy: true fulfillment. -Tony RobbinsLabels: GRRantings, meaningful stuff, MyLife |
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♥~And I said,
♥♥"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.♥♥
♥♥I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.♥♥
♥♥You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess♥♥
♥♥It's a love story♥♥
- baby just say 'Yes.'~♥
♥~04:24~♥ |
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ii'm so dead! the timing of my blog entries are getting more and more early... =X
been doing some work at home today.. didnt notice the time until damien came to chat with me on msn, ii was so shock to know tt it was already 5am =.=!!
guess ii was engross on thinking and getting inspirations!
well, today was a good day to stay at home...... cos its raining! ahahas! ii took a "short" nap as ii got awaken by jean at 9+am =.=!! so after doing a lil' stuff, drinking s-factor (cos nobody wants mac breakfast), watch 2 episodes of "nan xiong lan di", the weather started to darken. my whole body was worn out. ii layed on my bed feeling so comfortable and cosy. + ii slept on my boy's pillow, so have his smell.. hehes! soon, ii fell aslp.....................................................
my subconscious mind brought me to a place somewhere like snow city but even better! cos it was colder and bigger! (ii.was.feeling.real.cold.as.it.was.raining.heavily.in.reality) ii cant really remembered what happened but it was something like that:
my boy and ii + some others, ii think they're our friends cos ii didnt felt alone with my boy. it was so cold that ii was shivering inside and ii could really feel the cool breeze on my hands in reality.. though it was freezing, we still happily made our way up and reached the submit of a "mountain" where we were supposed to skii down the snow-covered floor.. *wee~*
after that................... ii was brought back to my house, somehow.... ii noticed my boy walking into our room while fiddling with his new N97 (white)! ii am not sure why but ii got annoyed.. maybe cos he bought the phone without telling me? hahas! ii ignored him and walked straight into the toilet.. he knew ii was annoyed so he stood outside the toilet and kept asking why am ii angry.. ii got pissed off that ii stormed out of the toilet and we started quarrelling.. ii dunt know what was the quarrel all about but in reality, ii was really feeling annoyed while ii'm asleep! =x after some time, he gave in and said the phone's for me.. yet, ii still didn't feel happy at all.. hahas! maybe cos my desire fer N97 is not that high yet.. lols!
2 dreams.. and it was evening time liaos... so happy that ii dreamt of him though the later dream wasn't a good dream at all, am still happy! xD
anyway, did any of uu ever dream something which left an impact, so much that when uu wake up, uu're feeling like what uu dreamt?
ii have leis =x ii still remember a time when ii dreamt of something so heartbreaking, (forget what was it about.) ii woke up with my heart aching so much that ii can really cry.... (the tear was ready to gush out)
dreams are interesting right? ii can never phantom them..
ok! so much said.. got to slp liaos... later need to go out until late at night then reach home (as usual) couldnt felt much excitement even though ii know tonight's meeting will have some shocking updates.. hmms.. guess ii need to learn to hype myself up more...
If you can imagine it, you can achieve it;
if you can dream it, you can become it. =)
-William Arthur Ward
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♥~And I said,
♥♥"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.♥♥
♥♥I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.♥♥
♥♥You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess♥♥
♥♥It's a love story♥♥
- baby just say 'Yes.'~♥
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