oops..!! unknowingly, it's almost 3am liaos.. gotta turn in lers.. *sorry my dear.. today ii so late then slp.. cos play maple mahs..

morning helped dear lvl cos... ytd made jiancong die.. *oops.!! sorry dear =P* hahas.. so today have to lvl for him lors.. then played xiiaojk till 50% then change to wayn's char.. cos he pestering.. hahas!! so many accounts to play.. -_-!! then think tmr lvl my xiiaojk lors.. cos 80% lers mahs.. want play,must play now.. sch reopen,ii cant play that much lers.. =(( hahas..

kk lors.. also watched campus superstar.. so funny.. geraldine.. yeah!! =)) but forgot lyrics again.. -_-!! hahas!!

wanna go out.. watch movie.. 2bcum1.. but wanna save $$.. hais.. so sians sias.. there goes my ritchie ren's movie..

tmr.. dear off but out with his friends.. arrgh!! FREE ME FROM MY BORED WORLD!! by giving me $$.. hahas!! kidding.!! =PpP

Relationships-of all kinds-are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

hmms.. another day passed.. getting closer to going to school lers.. yet.. it seems so far.. *wondering.what.sch.will.be.like# hmms~~

ytd dear came over to meet me.. so happy.. cos he bought breakfast for me.. and ii still owe him one.. =X hahas..!! sorry lors.. trying very hard to switch my timing.. but at least better than last time?? 430am,5am then sleep.. lols.. now the most also 330am.. hahas.. man man lai.. changes needs time.. time heals everything.. lols.. so take my pace yahs??

okies.. back to ytd.. slack at home till 5+pm then went to suntec see niunai.. hahas.. he live host that time so nervous.. kept woo-ing.. hahas.. so funny.. but he choreograph the dance nice leis.. then watched a few groups then went to makan sutra makan lers.. ate stringray.. so yummy.. ate all finish.. dear angry cos never leave some for him.. hahas!! sorry lors.. ii asked,uu wave mahs.. =PpP ytd,overall quite okies.. except being pissed off by 2 stupid tall girls.. squeeze my dear till stand behind me.. wa lau.. dunt know why dear wanna give them space lors.. we came earlier than them leis.. stand till legs wobble lers.. then just give them stand and see such good view.. -_-!! just bcos they tall,they pretty?? *yucks!!** spoil my mood!!

today~~
dear woke up later than me wors.. qiji.. lols.. my bed so nice to slp mehs?? on the fan full blast.. ii so cold leis.. he cuddlle in my bed till 1+pm,2pm.. hahas.. then suddenly say wanna go escape.. -_-!! called ly out.. her dear also zZz.. so waited for her reply till raining.. think she replied earlier but my hp not beside me.. hehes.. sorry wors.. then dear played com and ii played harvest moon.. my new game ii'm engross in now.. last time played the ps version.. now the gba version.. nicer.. hahas.. like this,1 day pass lers.. =(( my mum.. as usual.. ordered delivery cos dear came.. hahas.. next time he come more,ii get to eat more yummy food.. =PpP

A loving relationship is one in which the loved one is free to be himself -- to laugh with me, but never at me; to cry with me, but never because of me; to love life, to love himself, to love being loved. Such a relationship is based upon freedom and can never grow in a jealous heart.

sick!!

today... supposed to check up the ballroom function at aranda, and meet up with cindy.. but.. the weather's so hot.. i've got a bad flu.. my nose's torturing me.. and ii'm simply just too lazy to wear my shoes and get out of the house.. =X

luckily didnt meet ly.. otherwise.. lols.. she'll be even more disappointed?? cos it's all last minute.. and worst..!! cindy's out when ii said my laziness acting up again.. >.<>

kk.. another bored day.. dear got guard duty.. so called him talk talk.. then he say want buy se w800i.. trade in n7610,pay another 38 bucks for 2 years plan.. lols.. ii dunt know whether want mahs.. but it's worth it bahs.. yet,ii she bu de my n7610 cos got alot of his msgs inside..but he replied msgs only what.. resend lors.. hais.. ii also know.. but the feelings not the same mahs.. hais.. then ii found out that ii'm getting sick of n7610 lers leis.. =X and w800i's camera is 2mp.. plus it's mp3 phone.. plus plus 3D gaming.. and free 512 memory.. OMG!! so worth it.. and alot better than n7610 lors.. hais.. tmr promo end.. -_-!! good things dunt last..

anyways, saturday's coming.. ii want go see milk..!! he'll be dancing for the opening.. Yeahs!! he choreograph de leis.. =PpP

another.bored.day

just.finished watching Big Momma's House 2.. uu'll never know when big momma will be back.. =x lols.. the show.. so hilarious!! but only me laughing.. cos watching by myself mahs.. tmr gotta return to ben lers.. so watch lors.. then the pink panther.. watched 1st part,didnt continue.. cos falling asleep.. hahas!! but my bro say must watch middle part then nice.. then ii skipped to middle part mehs?? no heading de.. hahas.. and wanted to lvl my o0xiiaoJK0o.. but think tmr bahs.. today's tv day.. watch ylbfb.. laugh will stomach pain.. cos xiaozhu and simon.. so humorous.. hahas!!

didnt went ite to ask cos my bro said if ii go,sure no hope de.. it's all abt 1st impression.. hais.. so he helped me ask.. and really no hope lors.. cos they see different aspects.. hais.. just hope accounting will be better than logis.. =X

kk.. this is a bored blog okies.. cos ii'm a bored girl.. so pple who're not interested in my life, pls.. auto.. =X and dunt ever add me in favourites.. cos ii dunt wanna be favoured.. and for now,ii want my life to be in the top list of the most hated person.. this way,ii'll live better.. cos ii can just hack care abt how other's feel.. yeah man!! ii know ii'm mean.. but nice pple live a hard life.. yet no one notice.. so ii'm changing for the better.. for myself only though.. but ii'm happy..!! so who cares!!

however,there's one person whom ii cant just ignore.. cos he's impt to me,my life!! and he's the only one who understands me well though we do have stormy affair at times.. and ii just couldn''t let go.. so he's outta of the paragraph above.. hehes.. ^,^ he cant just ignore me.. ii'll go... s_S MAD %_%

gotta go.. tmr meeting him.. early.. dunt know whether he wants to go theme park mahs.. hais.. hope ii can just get up in time to meet him for breakfast.. >,<

love needs lots of efforts.. hatred is just a torture to urself.. why torture urself by hating someone?? rather love and be loved.. understand a little.. and the world will be a peaceful place to live in.. good and kind-hearted pple wunt extinct.. mean pple will vanish..

missing.him~~

hais.. today.. bored day.. wanted to meet dear de.. but.. no $$ and he book out so late.. -_-!! sads.. anyway,he gg ord lers.. think can pei me more bahs.. even if he sign on.. for 5yrs.. nth to me lers.. waited for him for almost 2 and a half yrs in army lers.. plus half a yr....... lols.. shh.. kk.. anyway.. waiting all my life for him.. so i'll just continue waiting lors.. =) the more ii wait... the more ii she bu de.. the more ii'll love him.. cos absence makes the heart grow fonder.. =))

hais.. missing him alot.. tot he got 1mth off.. lols.. wishful thinking.. only 2 wks nias.. what ii did sias?? why like so fast pass de?? hais..

tmr.. dunt think meeting him also.. cos he late book out.. =( then ii gg simei ite ask abt the appeal thing.. so funny.. why sh and me appeal unsuccessful sias.. hais.. weird!!

EeSsCcAaPpEe..... hEre.ii.c0me~~

went escape today wors.. so fun.. next weekend maybe gg again.. lols.. cos dear maybe next week gg with his friends.. hehes~~ got alot of free tickets mahs.. so dunt waste just go lors.. hahas!! go www free.. now escape also free admission.. lalaa~~ enjoy b4 school reopens..

there's only 1 ride that made me wanna blog in here cos it's amusing and memorable.. ii rode the go-kart so sun bian long pang my mummy lors.. then ii accelerated throughout cos ii wanted to pass dear's kart mahs.. but my mum there kept saying "slow down.. brake brake.. " over and over until the ride's over.. lols.. then she cling on tight to the side of the kart.. so funny right?? ii got drive fast mehs?? dear drive even more fast lors.. cos my younger sis sitting with him mahs.. then ii saw my sis sway when he made a turn.. hahas!! the whole ride was so funny..

oh-ya.. saw pei shi (sjab de) she was behind me during the go-kart queue..she grow more pretty lers sias.. hahas!! me still unchanged.. hahas..

tmr dunt know whether want book 2D1N chalet at dte or not.. $50 nett only leis.. cheap?? comments pls.. help me decide.. hees.. thanks!! =)

kk.. blog till here bahs.. -shagged day-

Kunda's Bday.!! 18.March -0ur.2.&.half.yrs-

Yeahs..!! today 18 March.. Kunda's bday.. though he dunt know.. but wish him in my heart can lers.. right?? hahas!!

Plus.. my dear and me 2 and half yrs together lers.. why like so long still 2 and a half yrs sias?? hais.. time pass so slowly mehs?? but like opening school lers leis.. hais..

kk lahs.. today happy day.. =)
went bugis cos.. hahas.. then went to ms watch The Dorm.. very nice.. but first part ii almost slept.. =X hahas!! anyway,since after watching fd3,all horror movies not that nice lers.. =X hahas!! ii think ii'm falling in love with gross things.. =X
at ms watch bridal fashion show.. lols.. the models.. so pretty.. but got 1 model walk until very funny.. then dear and me kept laughing when she out.. lols... then we laugh at the camera men.. and flash lights.. lols..
after the movie,went esplanade.. walk?? cos no where to sit mahs.. so walk come and go.. to and fro.. hahas!! alot of malays.. all group group de.. why so many pple going out today ars?? ii tot got pop bookfest and food fair?? so they must go there mahs.. =X lols.. kidding..

kk lahs.. go watch kxll..
xiao s : chen chen.. ni zhe me le? ni zhe me le?? =X
so funny.. =D

sians

updating my blog cos someone say ii no update...

ok lors.. now got new entry lers..

but more updates wait till tmr ok?? =X

sians.. played maple to get tubes.. but died 4 times..

what happened?? hais.. then never play lers..

just miss those days o0xiiaojk0o playing with jiancong..

hehes.. so fun..
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hahas!! kk..
short and sweet..

gotta sleep..

(rhymes bahs?)

tmr will be a great day for me!!

hehes!!

nights!! =)

ii.want.eat.ice.cream.=(

went cs today go walk walk.. cos ii very late then go out mahs.. then dear came meet me.. ii slack and dragged till 530pm then go bathe.. =X sorry.. tiired..

so,around 7pm then left house cos dear talking to my mummy.. talk so long.. like so many things to chat about.. =x went tamp cos ii wanted to go check out the converse shop see got sale or not mahs..but didnt have time to.. check out the comics shop to find egames-epoints card instead..

went to eat newyorker pizza for dinner.. =X cos ii felt like eating.. sorry lors dear.. ii dunt know what to eat mahs.. so decided that there eat better bcos ii want drink sweet talk drinks mahs.. ordered pearl milk tea as usual.. but dear went to order milo dino.. =( anyway,went took his milo dino drink a bit.. =X then he say ii bully him.. lols.. so funny.. where got?? share share mahs.. though he wunt drink my drink cos he dunt like.. haha!! =Pp eat until full full.. wanted to go eat ice-cream.. so we pass haagen dasz..cos he wanted to see if sh working or not mahs.. dunt know for what.. anyway,saw sh talking to jo they all.. then ii say ii go buy game card 1st.. but didnt returned cos .. .. .. anyway.. want eat ice-cream must wait till so long.. -_-!! ii think about 3wks + lers bahs.. =( hais.. sads.. no fate eat 1 stupid ice-cream!!

after that we roam around cs for awhile.. then went night market.. bought some un-neccessary stuffs.. but it's garfield lors.. =X haha!! rmbed the sales girl so cute.. ask me buy the small garfield then he buy big.. but ii chose the big one instead cos softer..and hug-able.. hahas!! then she gave discount.. ask us go back buy things again from her.. and the funny thing was.. she ask whether want bag or not... hahas!! of cos want lahs.. then she took a big plastic bag for that garfield.. -_-!! then we ask why so big,she replied : wait small plastic bag,the garfield head will pop out of the bag.. lols!! so cute!! ii laugh until =D hahas!!

kk.. went back to my hse.. cos tmr my mummy wanna go watch movie.. =X then ask me go.. then ii say ask him.. he say anything again.. hahas!! save ez-link fare,he decided to take my bed tonight.. =(

kk.. gotta sleep soon.. tmr long day.. sad day.. cos...... hmms.. hehes.. =PpP

hurts ("X")

HURt!! ii'm hurt.. thanks for all that..!! mia soon and fast..

hope sch reopen soon.. fast..!!
time passes.. fast!!

pple change.. feelings change..
uu thiink it'll last.. ii tot so too.. but ii'm just being naive..
everything comes and goes.. nothing lasts forever..
there's nowhere left to fall when uu reach the bottom it's all or never... =X
kk lahs.. everybody's leaving.. ii guess it's time for me to leave too??
till then,shalom all..

weird day

just came back from class chalet.. didnt wanna go cos ii'm broke.. but went just to see everyone?? nan de we girls can meet as a group.. reminded me of recesses and breaks.. hais..
was happy though to see them again.. but after a while,ii just found out that there's smth weird going on?? like some mysterious thing had happened.. and ii'm in the dark?? maybe ii'm just too sensitive.. didnt ask.. cos dunt bother to?? if they really want tell me,they would have.. unlike if ii ask,they can bluff me or what mahs.. so just dunt care lors..

felt much better when talking to hy and jess.. was glad that they came down to find me though hy was a little pissed when ii told her we're at mb and she's out already.. haha!! sorry hy.. didnt notice the time.. anyway,thanks for coming down wors.. ur dear really very shy.. but he got laugh and talk de.. =X oh no!! just remembered that ii've forgotten to take a pic of the 2 of uu.. =X sorry.. next time ok?? haha!! so long never laugh at lame things with them lers bahs.. then recalled those days we're at dte.. so nice.. though like wasting our time but can feel the happiness there?? haha!! weird day..

tmr dunt know how.. wanna take pay or not?? hais.. or pei dear?? or go for bbq?? ii dunt know.. pls tell me what can?? ii know ii'm indecisive.. ii'm always like that.. no decision at all.. but ii'm born like that.. cant be helped mahs.. hais.. sads.. just hate myself.. =(

dear.. why uu love me so much leis??

i'm.working.with.the.moon

at last,ii've woken up.. when everyone's gone.. =( what did ii dreamt?? how come wake up feeling kinda weird?? as if smth's gonna happen.. hais.. sads..

didn't really accompany dear ytd night.. online learning the raidobloggy thing.. somehow getting closer to it.. =) then he read newspapers mahs.. like 1 month never read newspapers then now keep reading.. haha!! never see him so engrossed in reading b4.. =X he left at 8+am ii thiink.. ii didnt sleep till 5am.. why cant ii just wait and endure for another 2 hrs or so..?? my stupid head..stupid eyes.. getting heavier as seconds ticked by.. -_-!!

hais.. so sorry my dear.. didnt managed to make ai xin breakfast for uu.. erms.. next time okies?? =X and dunt suddenly in the morning walk out to check on me okies?? ii know ii never pei uu last night.. but uu'll just freak me out with ur silent footsteps.. lols

kk.. it's 1242hrs.. he's alone later.. ii'm still at home.. not gg to stay so no need pack bag?? hahas.. ii dunt know leiis.. my whole body's weighting on me..!! ii need to change my slping time from now lers.. cant always pei the moon work.. cos after all, the sun's always better.. =) and.. play while uu still can.. =))

didnt went anywhere today.. went to meet dear already so late lers.. at first decided to go bugis shop shop,see see,look look.. lols.. but in the end we ended up at cseway pnt.. -_-!!
ok lahs.. at least ii managed to see what ii wanted.. hehes.. CONVERSE RAWKS!! ii'm aiming to buy the sling bag.. 60 bucks.. oh my..!! and 1 shirt.. cute cute de.. lols!!

tmr dunt know whether want to go for class chalet.. if go,dear alone.. if never go,the grp will be missing 1 jk.. lols.. *dilemma*

viewing the campus superstar website.. saw kenneth.. OMG!! his photo make me feel like puking.. *siick* so old lers still act cute!! walau..!! then poor yinwei.. though he's not good-lloking,pple comment abt his face till... -_-!! not their face also.. talk so much.. haha!! after that went to see geraldine's profile.. lols.. if she's out,ii doubt ii'm gonna watch that show again.. ming xing ou xian ii already no feel watching it lers lors.. 3 guys!! alicia out..!! not nice lers.. if she in,chengxi in and lincoln,sure funny till siao..!! but too bad.. haha!!

............................................kk lahs.. go pei my dear lers.................................................

after.stormy.times.sunshine's.back.. ii'm.happy =))

OMG..!! ii almost did it.. just a bit only.. *figuring..figuring.. why so difficult??* ii almost got it.. but.. put in this blog,it lagged alot.. hahas.. maybe ii should try it some other time.. cos after that time try,ii realised that today ii managed to do a bit more?? lols.. radioblog.. ii'll get uu 1 day.. cos ii'm smart.. =X hahas!!

kk.. went to find dear today.. so happy.. b4 left my hse,gotta pack my bag.. brought some stuffs over his hse.. then saw the things he bought for me while he was in thailand,being my 1st thai dear.. lols.. funny right?? thai dear.. thai dear.. nobody have except me.. hehes.. =PpP okies.. so hang those things on my bag.. nice.. got my name on it.. love it lots.. and the wallet.. all take airplane come sg de leis.. lols.. what a priviledge..! =D

Joycelyn's back again.. lalalaa~~ dunt know what ii talking nvm de.. ii know can lers.. hahas!!

tmr all rushing to poly for appeal.. ii dunt want to go anymore.. cos they'll ADVICE me retake o's and pass my maths and science again.. and plus ii dunt have any poly courses to choose in my results slip mahs.. so what's the pnt in trying.. ii failed..!! but ii'm gonna be better this yr.. hehes.. besides,waste my precious $$ and time.. it's my final decision.. so guess ii wunt regret bahs.. hope so.. anyway,hack care.. hahas!!

tmr go pei dear,since he coming to stay over at my place tmr night.. oh no!! messy messy room.. he's gonna nag.. arrgh..!! must go tidy it up fast.. lols.. at least b4 ii sleep.. hahas.. whee~~ (^,^)

*sads*

it's painful.. but ii had too.. but why did uu say it?? didnt we make a pact not to say it so easily?? and now uu said it.. ='( ii know uu will still read this.. ii know for sure.. cos ii know uu too well.. hais~~ maybe a short break will do us well.. thanks for everything..

uu've just hurt me.. ii'm just an empty person with no life.. rotting soon.. so pls back off..

>~ii'm.hurt-double.the.stabs-oh.man..!!-ii.just.hate.it-ii.hate.my.life-God.pls.save.me-ii'm.drowning.into.a.world.of.numbness.which.ii.hate.too~

haiz.. quarrels.ain't.fun!!

haiz.. wtf.. stupid com.. stupid internet.. stupid me.. just wished ii didnt exists..!! nobody care mahs.. ii thiink if 1 day ii'm really gone,no one will really noticed bahs..

bad day last night!! cried till ii slept?? anyone noticed?? nope bahs.. he wunt even care.. hais.. was so happy b4 that.. planned go eat ice-cream.. been wanting to eat ice-cream since a week plus or so.. hais.. so happy when he said okies.. but in the end we quarrelled.. but not really quarrel lahs.. maybe cold war?? he ignored me ytd.. while ii was crying under my blankky.. he knows mahs?? ii dunt think so.. hais~~ kk.. all my stupid fault.. thot that being true to uu was good.. 2 yrs + still no trust.. no security.. then what's the point.. told him lers.. hais.. we still like that..

talking abt care.. ii thiink ii'm starting to live a new life again.. a life where ii'll just hack everything.. time passes by.. my life will be so vague.. so vague till ii wunt even rmb what ii've been doing.. days are not so impt to me lers.. anyway nth lasts forever mahs.. hais..

what am ii blogging now?? ii dunt even know.. he dunt want to meet me lers.. sads.. heartbroken.. heart pain.. wanna cry.. but does he care?? hais.. ii dunt know.. maybe.. maybe not.. if he happens to read my blog again.. maybe he'll care?? maybe we'll start another quarrell.. hais.. hard to say.. dunt predict the future.. cos my future is bland..!!

oohs ya.. sp sent me my dae thingy.. asking me to go retake maths and science.. hais.. forget it lors... ii also dunt care lers.. just let it be.. ite then ite lors..

3rd march

hmms.. went to airport fetch dear.. finally he's back.. hahas.. luckily got yl and tanna pei me..if not ii alone..hahas.. but so funny when see him.. ii dunt know why.. dunt ask.. ok?? ii think only he knows bahs.. LOLS

anyway, he bought many things for me.. lols.. so happy.. hope he'll not go again.. but the first thing he said is save $$ go taiwan.. -_-!! but luckily he got say bring me go.. lols.. then saw his digi-cam.. got thai mei.. is his thai gf.. what the!! =( hais.. never mind lors.. took cab to his hse.. then slept through till 1+,2+pm,kena awoken by sh.. lols.. thanks leis.. for waking me up.. but really thanks for asking me to go and see the school posting.. =))

didnt do anything today except knowing the postings.. ii got into............................. simei east college - accountings -_-!! just as ii expected.. so not so sad.. think back,they say what the higher ur hopes,the more uu'll improve?? ii think no lors.. the more uu hope for,the more it'll dissappoint uu.. right??? tell me it's right.. =X cos ii think ii'm right lors.. =X

ok.. retarded me again.. gotta sleep lers.. write 1 stupid blog take so long -_-!! damn retarded me..!! nights!!

hmms... memories.. memories.. all come flowing back to my mind.. the best ii think was to sing 6 hrs in k bahs.. 7 to12?? then sang many many songs.. first time ii go k so happy sias.. ii also dunt know why.. hais.. but good times never last.. didn't ii say to give space..?? hais.. maybe ii should have given space.. then... hais~~
anyway,thiink ii'm gg mia for a mth or so bahs.. if things get better,ii will come back fast..
to her : i'll always rmb uu.. bringing me lots of laughters.. thanks.. ii know ii've hurt uu alot but.. things wunt as bad as uu see.. maybe uu'll hate me for stepping in between the two of uu.. but ii didn't expect this to happened.. and we will never be together..

good days dunt last

good things dunt last.. ii like short and sweet.. hmm.. but for now,maybe ii really should not stay happy at all.. though those good times were gone.. ii dunt know who she's refering to.. but ii know she's very sad.. ii'm so sorry.. but sorry also no use.. hais.. what's done is done.. maybe in the first place ii sholud have avoided.. hais.. but it's not what ii wanted mahs.. all the stupid bus stop fault.. hais..

right now,ii just hope my dear will come back soon.. though it's like a few hrs to go only.. but ii really wish he'll be here for me right now,at this very moment.. always think back those days uu were by my side.. so sweet.. so blissful..
so pls.. be back soon.. only when uu're back to my side,then ii will know the answer to my heart..

share this nice song lyrics with uu all.. my fav.. very meaningful and nice.. hehes..





Down

I Can Believe It
Tell Me I'm Dreaming
That We Are Still We
It Was Amazing
Said You Were Lucky
That You Found Me

It was on a rainy day, that we met you didnt have a place to go
Yeah
As we just met so lets go slow but no you just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can take it
Why did you fake it
Why did we kiss

And I'm just Down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured i must stop being such a child
You Never Know how much I been around
How My Heart just rounds of your down

I'll Be Your Teddy Bear
I'll Be Your Cloud
I'll Take you Round and Round

If you dont mind I can be your standing crown
Even if that means I drown

As we just met so lets go slow but no you just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can take it
Why did you fake it
Why did we kiss

And I'm just DownYou left me with a note without a sound
I figured i must stop being such a child
You Never Know how much I been around
How My Heart just rounds of your down

I'll Be Your Teddy Bear
I'll Be Your Cloud
I'll Take you Round and Round

If you dont mind I can be your standing crown
Even if that means I drown

And maybe that will be my one last vow