my emo's getting worst!!

ii cried.. ii just did!! didnt imagined ii'll cry in front of them.. ii tried holding back my tears.. bit and clasped my heart tight, trying not to let those tears flow.. like what ii always did when ii'm not left alone.. but this time,it seems just too difficult for me to control those raging tears from flowing.. hais.. MY HEART ACHES TERRIBLY!!!!

it seems that this problem have been going on for almost 2 weeks.. but ii've yet solve it.. was it my fault?? maybe.. but no one understands!! ii doubt he will even if ii told him.. he'll flare up instead!! hais.. ii wanted so much to let him know.. but ii cant.. who can help me??? NO ONE!!!

it's all bottled up in my heart, once again, hoping things to turn out fine or rather, am ii running away from problems again??

ii just hope ii wunt be shedding tears under my pillow and let him see the down side of me when he reach home later.. he'll probe, he WILL!! Oh God!! Pls, help me.. ii'm going berserk soon!!

got to turn in soon.. if not ande will niam me never slp early liaos.. tmr still got sch.. sians!! no mood but no choice.. it's a contract signed!! -_-