my boy is going to scold me fer being awake at this hour and drinking s-factor =X
but ii am hungry.. it's supposed to be my supper.. the supper uu'd buy back fer me after ur work =S
*ii'm.lonely*
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1st night..
1st night ii am going to sleep alone =X
came home at 10am and ii felt loneliness. he won't be there fer nights and yet, ii still can visual him there on the bed, watching tv..
oh no! gonna stop here before ii cant control my tears..
ii miss him.. ii really do.. and its just 1st night.. 10 more nights to go.. how am ii going to endure..? sigh!
ii really need to learn to be independent! am learning too.. lols!
anyway.. been long time since ii blog good stuff.. is this considered good? hahas! well, at least ii'm not angry. xP hahas!!
gonna keep myself busybusybusy! ^^
and today went fine.. hahas! 10 more days to go..
I CAN DO IT!! ^^6
was supposed to meet at kappo today at 2pm.. and cos ii reached home at 10am, ii decided to take a "short" nap.. around 1pm my boy called me and we chatted a while.. ii went back to continue my dream (was dreaming of my boy and me go on board cruise. so sweet rights? hehes!) so ii said to myself: "10mins more.."
1:10pm, ii peeped at the clock.. so 5mins more..............
ii slpt.. x_X and dreamt of him again.. this time different scenerio..
by the time ii woke up, 215pm! Omy Goodness Gracious!!
ii replied kappo's sms and luckily,he replied he just woke up too.. damn funny lo... hahahas!!
today raining.. bo bian.. got appt and need help customer buy bust serum also.. so.. have to go mp.. enjoy air con and not cool weather.. =( but even stay at home also no use.. sch reopen le, my boy went reservist.. so it'll be quiet.. waste my time also, might as well go earn $ and learn some stuff.. hees~
ok! enuff said!
BABY, UU'RE BEING MISSED..
(2weekstochange, 5weeksmoretogo..)
came home at 10am and ii felt loneliness. he won't be there fer nights and yet, ii still can visual him there on the bed, watching tv..
oh no! gonna stop here before ii cant control my tears..
ii miss him.. ii really do.. and its just 1st night.. 10 more nights to go.. how am ii going to endure..? sigh!
ii really need to learn to be independent! am learning too.. lols!
anyway.. been long time since ii blog good stuff.. is this considered good? hahas! well, at least ii'm not angry. xP hahas!!
gonna keep myself busybusybusy! ^^
and today went fine.. hahas! 10 more days to go..
I CAN DO IT!! ^^6
was supposed to meet at kappo today at 2pm.. and cos ii reached home at 10am, ii decided to take a "short" nap.. around 1pm my boy called me and we chatted a while.. ii went back to continue my dream (was dreaming of my boy and me go on board cruise. so sweet rights? hehes!) so ii said to myself: "10mins more.."
1:10pm, ii peeped at the clock.. so 5mins more..............
ii slpt.. x_X and dreamt of him again.. this time different scenerio..
by the time ii woke up, 215pm! Omy Goodness Gracious!!
ii replied kappo's sms and luckily,he replied he just woke up too.. damn funny lo... hahahas!!
today raining.. bo bian.. got appt and need help customer buy bust serum also.. so.. have to go mp.. enjoy air con and not cool weather.. =( but even stay at home also no use.. sch reopen le, my boy went reservist.. so it'll be quiet.. waste my time also, might as well go earn $ and learn some stuff.. hees~
ok! enuff said!
BABY, UU'RE BEING MISSED..
(2weekstochange, 5weeksmoretogo..)
what is trust?
ii cant believe that uu'd actually say that.. hmms.. after all my efforts and uu still say that nobody cares fer uu.. oh well... even though ii SO MUCH wanted to help uu, uu disappoint me more than the times uu made me happy... ii realised what most of our common friends told me, is true.. but ii chose not to give up cos ii still believe in uu.. hahas! naive huhs!
humans are greedy.. ii always believe in treating others how uu want them to treat uu back.. ALWAYS!! (since secondary sch) cos ii believe and witnessed retributions. thus even though ii treat others good, its all out of my own will... ii dunt expect any rewards cos my conscientiousness is clear.
However, as a tauran, ii can be very nasty too, if uu stepped on my toes.. (uu should know it better)
ii can give in to uu 1 time, 2 times, 3 times or even 10 times.. cos ii understand a lil' of ur history and why uu are like that... BUT, please dunt take me fer granted!! its ok if uu whine to me everyday, cos ii will not be affected by uu.. (in this world, either uu influence pple or let others influence uu.) just dunt say NOBODY CARES FOR YOU cos from what ii see, excluding me, at least there is another person willing to listen to uu with his great patience, w/out any rewards.. and first time ii saw him cry in front of the both of us, at blk 53.. sigh!
ii'm not in need of friends.. from sec sch to ite days and now, working life.. how many friends stayed? how many friends left? and those who stayed, they are the ones uu should cherish most cos they are considered ur true friends.. is this how uu treat ur true friends?
come on la.. we're not young anymore... as we grow up, no doubt we become more emotional.. but we also grow to be more mature.. ii know ii have my own bad points... and nobody can change my bad points unless ii'm willing too... and ii wunt know if there are any other bad points hidden in me unless someone tells me honestly.. at times, ii dunt even know what ii want. what makes uu think ii can phantom what uu are thinking when uu dunt even want to voice out?
as ii've always say:
" nobody knows ur problem until uu tell them.. "
" nobody can change your life unless uu are willing to change urself first... if uu chose to stick to ur old self, uu will continue living ur old life. "
ii'm not going to make my life miserable again bcos of ur sentences that can really disappoint me.. always rmb : ii can always choose to ignore.. and if ii really do ignore, ii have given up on our relationship. just dunt be the first cos ii can see that uu are trying very hard to change urself. therefore, ii dunt wish it to be uu..
and always rmb the story ii shared with uu - the mother with 2 sons.
another nice quote ii saw in my friend's msn which ii find it meaningful:
"If you look at what you do not have in life, you don't have anything.
If you look at what you have in life, you have everything. "
nice quote huhs? hahas... well, just needed to vent this stuff out cos ii cant share it with anyone esp uu! uu just wunt listen anyway.. lols!
humans are greedy.. ii always believe in treating others how uu want them to treat uu back.. ALWAYS!! (since secondary sch) cos ii believe and witnessed retributions. thus even though ii treat others good, its all out of my own will... ii dunt expect any rewards cos my conscientiousness is clear.
However, as a tauran, ii can be very nasty too, if uu stepped on my toes.. (uu should know it better)
ii can give in to uu 1 time, 2 times, 3 times or even 10 times.. cos ii understand a lil' of ur history and why uu are like that... BUT, please dunt take me fer granted!! its ok if uu whine to me everyday, cos ii will not be affected by uu.. (in this world, either uu influence pple or let others influence uu.) just dunt say NOBODY CARES FOR YOU cos from what ii see, excluding me, at least there is another person willing to listen to uu with his great patience, w/out any rewards.. and first time ii saw him cry in front of the both of us, at blk 53.. sigh!
ii'm not in need of friends.. from sec sch to ite days and now, working life.. how many friends stayed? how many friends left? and those who stayed, they are the ones uu should cherish most cos they are considered ur true friends.. is this how uu treat ur true friends?
come on la.. we're not young anymore... as we grow up, no doubt we become more emotional.. but we also grow to be more mature.. ii know ii have my own bad points... and nobody can change my bad points unless ii'm willing too... and ii wunt know if there are any other bad points hidden in me unless someone tells me honestly.. at times, ii dunt even know what ii want. what makes uu think ii can phantom what uu are thinking when uu dunt even want to voice out?
as ii've always say:
" nobody knows ur problem until uu tell them.. "
" nobody can change your life unless uu are willing to change urself first... if uu chose to stick to ur old self, uu will continue living ur old life. "
ii'm not going to make my life miserable again bcos of ur sentences that can really disappoint me.. always rmb : ii can always choose to ignore.. and if ii really do ignore, ii have given up on our relationship. just dunt be the first cos ii can see that uu are trying very hard to change urself. therefore, ii dunt wish it to be uu..
and always rmb the story ii shared with uu - the mother with 2 sons.
another nice quote ii saw in my friend's msn which ii find it meaningful:
"If you look at what you do not have in life, you don't have anything.
If you look at what you have in life, you have everything. "
nice quote huhs? hahas... well, just needed to vent this stuff out cos ii cant share it with anyone esp uu! uu just wunt listen anyway.. lols!
This is Joyz'
-LoveStory-
ok, i'm back!
NOT A GOOD POST SO DON'T READ!!!
ii just blog cos ii really need too.... its starting to rain... ii just started sims 3... but log out of the game after 5mins!! ii dun't have the mood to play!! wtf right?!?! ITS MY FAVOURITE GAME AND I SHUT IT DOWN AFTER 5MINS!! something is really wrong with me.. and YES!! ii AM!
can ii cry like the drizzles now?
ii believe everyone have their own problems THEY CANT SHARE!! me too!! ii have problems too! but its not me to share my problems any-old-how with anyone, in fact, ii dunt usually share my problems with any one! all my friends knows me as a happy-go-lucky girl.. so blissful huhs? its just appearance.. hahs!
not even my closest guy knows about my problem. why? cos he will dump the problem back to me.. so no point and ii know he doesnt have time.. ii want extra time too. yet, can i leave everything ii have to my benefactor? ii can't. ii can't possibly dump my babies to my mother and leave right? thats not just any mother will do.
ii know ii'm at fault.. ii shouldnt help at all.. get into this shit and still hoping for the better.. it will never be, cos it takes 2 hands to clap.
joycelyn koh, just don't get too emotional. this is life... uu must learn to grow..
ok.. time to get things started.. 2 more months left... its never too late thus ii can make it de!!
Want to change your life? First, change yourself.. nobody knows how to walk when they just came to this world.. so joycelyn, open your heart and start learning.. uu are in the process of growing, everyone who knows uu well, knows that. =)
ii just blog cos ii really need too.... its starting to rain... ii just started sims 3... but log out of the game after 5mins!! ii dun't have the mood to play!! wtf right?!?! ITS MY FAVOURITE GAME AND I SHUT IT DOWN AFTER 5MINS!! something is really wrong with me.. and YES!! ii AM!
can ii cry like the drizzles now?
ii believe everyone have their own problems THEY CANT SHARE!! me too!! ii have problems too! but its not me to share my problems any-old-how with anyone, in fact, ii dunt usually share my problems with any one! all my friends knows me as a happy-go-lucky girl.. so blissful huhs? its just appearance.. hahs!
not even my closest guy knows about my problem. why? cos he will dump the problem back to me.. so no point and ii know he doesnt have time.. ii want extra time too. yet, can i leave everything ii have to my benefactor? ii can't. ii can't possibly dump my babies to my mother and leave right? thats not just any mother will do.
ii know ii'm at fault.. ii shouldnt help at all.. get into this shit and still hoping for the better.. it will never be, cos it takes 2 hands to clap.
joycelyn koh, just don't get too emotional. this is life... uu must learn to grow..
ok.. time to get things started.. 2 more months left... its never too late thus ii can make it de!!
Want to change your life? First, change yourself.. nobody knows how to walk when they just came to this world.. so joycelyn, open your heart and start learning.. uu are in the process of growing, everyone who knows uu well, knows that. =)
This is Joyz'
-LoveStory-
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