what is trust?

ii cant believe that uu'd actually say that.. hmms.. after all my efforts and uu still say that nobody cares fer uu.. oh well... even though ii SO MUCH wanted to help uu, uu disappoint me more than the times uu made me happy... ii realised what most of our common friends told me, is true.. but ii chose not to give up cos ii still believe in uu.. hahas! naive huhs!

humans are greedy.. ii always believe in treating others how uu want them to treat uu back.. ALWAYS!! (since secondary sch) cos ii believe and witnessed retributions. thus even though ii treat others good, its all out of my own will... ii dunt expect any rewards cos my conscientiousness is clear.

However, as a tauran, ii can be very nasty too, if uu stepped on my toes.. (uu should know it better)
ii can give in to uu 1 time, 2 times, 3 times or even 10 times.. cos ii understand a lil' of ur history and why uu are like that... BUT, please dunt take me fer granted!! its ok if uu whine to me everyday, cos ii will not be affected by uu.. (in this world, either uu influence pple or let others influence uu.) just dunt say NOBODY CARES FOR YOU cos from what ii see, excluding me, at least there is another person willing to listen to uu with his great patience, w/out any rewards.. and first time ii saw him cry in front of the both of us, at blk 53.. sigh!

ii'm not in need of friends.. from sec sch to ite days and now, working life.. how many friends stayed? how many friends left? and those who stayed, they are the ones uu should cherish most cos they are considered ur true friends.. is this how uu treat ur true friends?

come on la.. we're not young anymore... as we grow up, no doubt we become more emotional.. but we also grow to be more mature.. ii know ii have my own bad points... and nobody can change my bad points unless ii'm willing too... and ii wunt know if there are any other bad points hidden in me unless someone tells me honestly.. at times, ii dunt even know what ii want. what makes uu think ii can phantom what uu are thinking when uu dunt even want to voice out?

as ii've always say:
" nobody knows ur problem until uu tell them.. "
" nobody can change your life unless uu are willing to change urself first... if uu chose to stick to ur old self, uu will continue living ur old life. "

ii'm not going to make my life miserable again bcos of ur sentences that can really disappoint me.. always rmb : ii can always choose to ignore.. and if ii really do ignore, ii have given up on our relationship. just dunt be the first cos ii can see that uu are trying very hard to change urself. therefore, ii dunt wish it to be uu..
and always rmb the story ii shared with uu - the mother with 2 sons.

another nice quote ii saw in my friend's msn which ii find it meaningful:
"If you look at what you do not have in life, you don't have anything.
If you look at what you have in life, you have everything. "

nice quote huhs? hahas... well, just needed to vent this stuff out cos ii cant share it with anyone esp uu! uu just wunt listen anyway.. lols!