Boringggg~

Guess it will be a boring saturday. Babycong is working, ii have no plans for the day. Actually is ii lazy to plan a.. x_x

I feel tt ii'm a boring person lo. (and many says taurens are boring pple) hahas!
Maybe bcos ii often can't make decisions,
Maybe bcos ii am not verbally good in expressing myself out,
Maybe bcos ii'm too afraid of hurting others,
Maybe bcos ii am too self-conscious,
Maybe bcos ii often do not have a stand in life.

I have words ii rather not say.
I have problems ii rather run away.

And for sure, ii have realised not to care about everything happening in my life tt is none of my concern, realised that things/people come and go, realised that Nothing is Forever, and lastly, realised that acting blur makes life much more easier.

To me, "dunt know" seems to be the best fitting word to push away all responsibility.
To me, ii know the difference between trying ur best and giving it ur all.
To me, if ii wanna do something, ii will put in my best effort to do it well. It's either do or dunt do.
To me, it's not me to judge if ii did my best or if ii slipshod in everything ii do. It is for others, the 3rd party to judge for me.

Whether my life is going to be successful or not, it is up to me to make it happen. If it doesn't happen, ii know ii have not been giving in my all and thus not ready to be successful yet!

The only thing ii can decide for myself is the way ii think and feel. It is not easy to be positive in life and ii am constantly trying to be very positive abt life. I laugh bcos laughing is the fastest way to make things/humans positive. This is the only stand ii have in life. Sometimes my laughs make pple think ii am crazy, but ii dunt mind as long as they are happy. Sometimes my laughs makes me feel that it is the best way to solve conflicts/awkwardness.

I can be angry with a person but still joke with the rest except him/her bcos ii feel that the rest deserve to be happy except for him/her. ii ignore a person bcos ii feel it is not worth wasting my time and feelings on it. I only care about pple who cares about me and cherish the value of relationship between us.

I dunt reply msn chats either bcos ii am not available or feel that the person is not worth my time to chat with.
I dunt reply SMS bcos my storage is full till the extend that ii need to delete ur SMS to reply uu and after deleting ur SMS, ii forgot what uu have asked. ><
I dunt answer phone calls either ii am not available at tht moment or ii feel there is no need to answer the call when uu can simply drop me a SMS. Eg: "hey! What will uu be doing later huh?" "are uu free to meet me?" or "today ii will be doing this,uu wanna join in?"
Phone calls to me is for emergencies that can't be easily typed out thru SMS! Eg: I need ur help on an enquiry. I have problems and I need someone to talk to. Or even when uu are alone outside at night feeling lost and no where to go, uu called and say "joyz, can ii meet uu now? I feel like dying soon."

One thing for sure, uu're the one who called thus dunt expect me to be the only one talking unless ii am counselling uu. If I call uu, it means ii have something to tell/ask uu and not call uu to wait for uu to tell/ask me something right? Lol!
Eg: "hey joyz. (paused) uu have anything to tell me?" omg! =.=

Say ii attitude or what, ii dunt care. uu'll accept me for who ii am if uu treat me as friends.

My only perception on life is to treat uu back how uu treat me. Simple! :) uu everytime so happy to see me, ii everytime will so happy to see uu too! uu everytime see me emo, ii everytime see uu emo lo. Hahas!

Ok! Enuff of all these. Ytd found a long lost friend thru FB. Recalled back how ii use to hang out with her. The history that ii wanna go back to, bcos tt is the time when ii am truly enjoying my life without any burden except studies. Lol! The whole bunch of pple ii hang out with, ii must say, they created every bits and parts of this happy memory. Even though it is just slacking around, we seem to hve endless topics to talk about, an seems like there is laughter in every topic we share. :)

Hoping to group back these pple but ii know it is a difficult task. I think it has been abt 7 yrs since we stop hanging ard. Hahas!
People come, people go.. The one thing that ii believe is fate brings 2 strangers together. It is up to them to cherish this fate or let it slip away~ to build this stranger relationship into friends or maintain it as acquaintance!

Time for breakfast! Damn, ii am up this early! >< ii wanna eat toast~ =9

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