Flashbacks!

ii just cant imagine ii managed to verbally share a bit of my past to 3 pple! And ii swear ii felt like crying at that point of time. T_T i've never opened myself up to anyone verbally bcos ii jolly well know ii will tear. I still cant cross over to the emotional part. Sighh! (TBC was the only time ii shared my past briefly bcos ii didnt knew anyone there at tt time and everyone was sharing.) x.x

Gawd-damn! Tmr ii am sure ii will breakdown. I need lots of courage, encouragement and ii need that someone to just say "joyz, ii understand ur plight. I've been through." and really understand my feeling till he/she can express on behalf of me. I guess its tough because no one shares the same life story.

Now iim recalling back all my past memories. The unhappy ones, of cos!
We used to be..... And now we....... (iim not referring to my love rls here.)

Thus ii really admire those who have someone they can pour their heart out to, verbally. I have the "someone" too! Just that ii still cant let go of myself yet! Im more of a wordy person than a verbal person. It takes extra effort to express myself verbally. Lol! WTH am ii gibbering about. Ha!

If only someone can understand..
(Please! If uu are not close to me, dunt ever say uu understand bcos it sounds so fake and its not comforting but sympathies! I dunt need them! If uu wanna get close to me, make sure we'll contact each other almost everyday and have lots of topics to chat abt! This is what ii call "close friends.")

Mingtianhuigenhao!
I really wish someone can help me solve my f-up life!
I wanna cry~ OMG!!!