Get this over soon.

Im not as tough as i thought i will be.

I kept thinking my life may be different if... but then all these are my choice. Or maybe i dunt even have a choice.

Life is all planned out because i am afraid to take the risk/change. This is why im here thinking if ii followed my goals and dreams in the first place, my life may be better. Its not that my life now is not any better but this is not the life i wanted. 😧

Tell me who can i turn to?

I feel so depress now and i dunt wanna bother anyone with my sorrows. Although i know its only 1 week left, my endurance is getting to its bottom pit. I cant leave yet cant do without them. Tell me, how can i make myself feel better?

I have NEVER cried this much in my entire 27 years of life! And to say 1 more week to go is just to tell myself to endure through. In actual fact, it is ANOTHER 2 MORE WEEKS!!

IHATETHISSOMUCHIWANNADIE!
Yet i need to be strong for my family and jovynn. I guess jovynn is my only happiness and the source of my motivation to carry on living.